I feel miserable

"I feel so miserable without you; It's almost like having you here." Stephen Bishop. I don't think I understand this quote at all. Bishop kind of condricts themselves. How can you feel miserable when there not there but u feel as if they are there? Maybe I'm retarded and I'm not thinking out of the box enough I have no idea. When I deeply think about this quote I think of Maxwell my cousin who died. I start to feel sad and when I get sad I can almost see him and feel him around. I miss him so much but It's been a long time since he died but it still hurts. I know that my Aunt jodi who is maxwell's mother still thinks about him everyday and is still very sad when it comes around to his birthday and his death. I feel sad that one day I might forget about him but I dont want to at all. I want my children to think of him and remember him as a great cousin. I miss him so much and I love him a lot but I'm still afraid I might forget about him.